11/14/2009 at Metrowalk, Pasig

yeah im kupal in a lot of ways.

last friday i went out to meet a guy for drinks and probably possibly a no strings attached sex. he's chinese, 39 years old, a self-made man and from a rival school. he stands a bit small for my type with proportionate body.

i seldom or never get attracted to chinese guys or any other east asian guys for that matter.

so this guy was curious. we exchanged text messages first. he finds it cute actually because it was his first time. he got curious about me. he probably never encountered a girl like me...so open...so liberated.

he never met a stranger online. most of the girls he meet are introduced by friends. so this meeting is quite exciting for him. he said he feels like a juvenile.

we went to a bar in metrowalk in pasig and had a round of premium beer. we just talked and talked. the more i talk, the more i pique his curiosity.

i asked him...if you're not into this kind of thing, what made you decide to meet me? he said i was pleasant, i have good command of english and i'm smart. it was a good compliment. i was kind of surprised for the english part though.

the smile never left his face the entire time. he's probably thinking "i can't believe i'm doing this...i drove from tomas morato on traffic and drunk just to meet this crazy girl"

and then he asked me..."what do you think of me?" i said..."average"...then the smile becomes awkward. he's still smiling but kind of frowning at the same time.

hey, i'm just being honest...i'm very frank about these things. average because i've dated extremely beautiful guys.

then he said out of the blue...more of out of context of our conversation..."i can't believe i'm going to ask you this...but would you sleep with me tonight?"

i can't believe too that he asked me that. i thought we're having a great conversation.

i said, "what? we're having a great conversation here...plus you're drunk...it's late i have a thing tomorrow and i'm not in the mood"

he sort of stopped smiling. i said, "was i too harsh?"

he said, "kind of blunt"

"sorry, that's me. i don't mean to be too straightforward."

he said, "for me (he got attracted because of the) it's more of the intellectual stimulation"

"i know. we're having a great conversation here...i need to excuse myself...i need to go to the bathroom"

when i got back...after a few minutes he said he wanted to go home because he's getting too drunk to drive. he offered to take me to my parking space but i refused.

that's the end of that night. another one bites the dust. i know this is gonna go back to me (karma) but i don't want to force myself to someone i'm not even attracted to. i like the conversations though.