for the first time in my life i have made the first move to tell someone that i really really like him to the point that i think i'm already in love with him.
the next question i asked myself and of him...given the current status and the time spent together, is it normal to be in love? literature have suggested several times that infatuation, the feeling of being in love, the love at first sight...happens instantly without prior significant experience. true love perhaps will take time...it's a long process and hard work.
so what happened after i told him that? nothing. i did not receive any replies. was i rejected? most probably (ignoring or not dealing with it is one way of rejecting), there was even no acknowledgment either. oh well. you can't expect people to react politely or gentlemanly. i must have scared him. he must think that i'm a psycho or something.
oh well.
i felt disappointed and sad, of course, upon realizing that i was rejected, but that feeling did not linger long. i'm only human and wishing that the reaction would be something positive or rather in my favor.
the good thing about this experience is, because it is the first time i've done this, it feels liberating. and it feels that whatever rejections come my way, i'd be ok. it's not scary at all. i used to fear it but now that i have conquered this fear i feel great!
kudos to me!
let's see who's going to be my next victim :)
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