sauna incident

You know how your instincts work when you are in danger? That feeling that you should get out of the situation while you still can?

Good thing I did not faint in the sauna. I did throw up some saliva and water but I was fine after a few minutes. Whew. That was close. I thought people would just find me lying on the sauna floor.

It is the first time that that happened to me. I've been going there several times after my swim -- 30 laps in a 20 meter pool. I should not have stayed longer than I should.

Oh well another lesson learned. Thank God I did not totally fainted.

Near death experience

I had a near-death experience this morning. Had I gone out of the car sooner, I wouldnt be able to write this. Good thing I only sustained minor cuts and bruises and a muscle pain at the side of my back. Thank God also that my cousin's wife and her sister did not incur any major damages, just dizziness, head ache and a sprain in the wrist.

Thank God for another gift of life!

As I look back at what happened this morning, I realize that there is one thing that I would probably regret not doing. That is to try again to talk to The One and tell him "tangina ka sa lahat ng taong maiiisip ko nang malapit na akong mamatay e ikaw pa!" But seriously, this goes to show that after all those years of denial (kalahating dekada) and struggles to keep the feelings way deep inside I still do love him.

Pero gagawin ko ba?

I suddenly have an itch....I want to be impulsive about it but my logic tells me otherwise...happy na siya e manggugulo pa ba ako?

Surprisingly!

I did not even think of my parents or my brothers and friends...loved ones that will be left behind (except for The One). I always felt I am ready to die anytime and that everything will be alright. Probably malakas ang loob ko kasi may insurance naman akong maiiwan sa kanila.

I did not even think of my goals, my future dreams, things I would like to do or places to go. I did not even regret not having a family at this period of my life - which as everyone knows is a major issue of my life.

I am baffled with my realizations. What does this mean?

Funny!

I received a text message this morning from a stranger:

I love mornings...
They make me think of the value of life.
They ask me to live not from yesterday's sorrows nor tomorrow's dreams, but today's blessings!

And truly, am still blessed.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

i dont think that many people know that i hate new year. not the coming of a new year per se but the events that would happen during new year's eve or even before new year's eve.

sumasakit ang ulo at tenga ko sa mga paputok! it seems that every year people would always invent something louder than last year's bang. as if hindi na nakuntento sa mga mangled hands, accidents and death counts during that time of the year. but that's not the reason why I dont like new year. ayaw ko kasing nagugulat ako. i hate the feeling na nagulat ako dahil sa lakas ng bang.

kung di lang nga ba krimen ang manabunot at mangurot ng mga taong nagpapaputok sa kalye habang naglalakad ako e ginawa ko na. ultimo upos ng yosi iniiwasan ko sa pagaakalang paputok yon.

and of course with the new year there's always the tradition of creating a resolution's list. i don't recall ever making one...if i had i'm sure i was not able to follow whatever's on that list. anyway, as like with promises it's made to be broken.