Post for my 35th birthday

My birthday posts serves as a recap of what has happened to me in the past year. A self-assessment of some sort. And at the same time sort of a new year's resolution.

Was I able to reach the goal that I have set to myself last year? No.

I believe, my goal last year was to change my relationship status. And it's still the same. Every 11:11 AM or PM I wish it would change. You can't force love if it's not yet time. It seems that even if you created opportunities for it to happen, it just won't.

For this year, I would like to aspire to become a better person.  There are many things that I can improve on and learn (I've been putting off these) e.g. start a healthier diet and must make exercise a habit. Learn something new whether sewing or an accelerated MBA program.

Will no longer waste my energy and attention to someone who wouldn't do the same. Will no longer short change myself.  I'd rather waste my time and effort to producing a better me.

Life is indeed to short to be wasted on trivialities.

25th for the 8th year

Birthday log.

It's a good thing to note that this year I am not sick...physically and emotionally. Although I was alone, I'm in a good place when I celebrated my birthday.

I have planned to go to Thailand since early this year with a friend who is also going to celebrate his birthday in November (we're just a few days apart) but since he doesn't want to wade on the flood water in Bangkok, I went alone...to Chiang Mai.

Chiang Mai was one of the most awesome places to see. Well maybe it was awesome for me when I went there because it was Loi Krathong Festival (Yee Peng festival for Chinese, floating and/or flying of the lanterns as offering to the water goddess for bringing them water).

The day of my birthday was the last day of the festival. They had a grand parade which was participated by the government agencies, universities, and private companies (mostly by famous tourist places such as night safari and Chiang Mai zoo).

I think there were thousands of lanterns that flew that night. There were panda shaped lanterns and heart shaped lanterns. Of course, most of the lanterns you see there are the regular rectangular ones of different sizes. You would see people writing their wishes on their lanterns, hoping that the gods or goddesses would read them when they float it towards the sky. Some were just sort of praying with their eyes closed while holding the lit lantern.



I've floated one and I did make a wish :) It went up high in the sky. I just hope it would come true soon. If it didn't it's a fun experience anyway.



The lanterns looked like fireflies in the sky. It's just so beautiful. Some lanterns would fly up really high, some lanterns would get stuck on a tree or would get entangled in an electrical wire (which is scary because it might create fire, but it never happened).

Fireworks are everywhere. People were all having fun...it's just like New Year's eve here in the Philippines but much safer.

A great way to celebrate my birthday!

Plus, I've made new friends :D

32 years of existence in this world...

and what does it feel like? i feel awesome now! i feel good. i feel satisfied but i feel that there is more to come...more experiences and more adventures.

i refuse to not LIVE the rest of my life.

I'm less than half way to go considering the life expectancy of Filipino women (which is projected at 72 years by the way).

i've been doing the things i love...it may be hurting my pocket sometimes but what the heck, i'm living!!!

p.s. good to note that i'm not sick on my birthday. i was always sick the previous years.

My 10th 21st birthday

Everything's planned for the day.

I will work the whole day. Answer to client's calls and emails. Reply to greetings. Go home and have dinner with family.

No special activities, no surprises, no gifts. My birthday is just any other day. I don't feel special, I don't feel sad nor happy. I feel neutral. Same feeling I had yesterday and the days before.

I'm grateful though for another year and thankful for the greetings.

How should one feel on their birthday?

I'm sick of...

being sick and tired most of the time.

If only I can trade my throat for new ones. Been barking like a dog for more than a week now...antibiotics and antitussive drugs doesn't seen to work.

Why is it that whenever my birthday is just around the corner I get sick?

I'm so fucking hating this.

I'm officially 21 years old to nth power!!!

Yeah! As far as the waiter and I are concerned, I'm 21 hehehe....

Here's to my araw ng kapanganakan.



Thank you so much Tito Tony, Tita Marissa, Joseph and Kristine for making my birthday a very good one.

Sarap ng ice cream cake! :D

karir

Sobrang nami-miss ko na mama ko...birthday niya kasi bukas. It's great that she's going to celebrate her birthday sa bahay ng tita ko sa tate. Sabi nga nya medjo dramatic ang effect daw kasi may mga sulo pa daw na sisindihan dun sa garden...sana andun din kami :( next year hopefully....kung maka-graduate ako.

soooooobrang tamad akong magreview for my compre exams...may group interview last saturday but i completely forgot about it...started reviewing my stats....putsa pare after one chapter ayoko na!

been sulking in my room every afternoon for the past 3 days now, nag-gigitara...tumitingin sa kawalan...natutulog...i really feel unmotivated...iniisip ko nga kung ito ba talaga ang gusto ko para sa sarili ko...actually kung tatanungin mo ako ngayon kung ano ang gusto ko...magkikibit balikat lang ako. dati solid ako kung ano ang gusto ko...ngayon ewan.

am i just being moody with what i want in my life? o baka yung ini-imagine ko dati na gusto ko eh hindi naman talaga yun ang gusto ko kundi it's just something very ideal at the time?

nung bata ako tinanong ako ng lola ko kung ano ang gusto ko paglaki...sabi ko gusto kong maging doktor, gusto ko maging scientist, teacher, lawyer, pilot, astronaut...well so far...

doktor...well marunong akong kumuha ng blood pressure, marunong akong mag-cpr, marunong ako mag-iv sa isang aso...

scientist...nag-experiment ako sa mga soap

teacher...i took a degree in teaching and i was able to practice it during my ojt

lawyer...mahilig akong makipag-argue hehehe at may alam ako sa ibang mga batas...at naging public official ako...di ko alam kung nagka-count ito sa pagiging isang lawyer.

pilot / astronaut...bro ko kumuha ng aviation...nakakapag-astral travel ako, involuntary nga lang.

dati niloloko ako ng bunso kong kapatid..."dr. ortiz, dr. ortiz you're wanted at the basement!" tawa lang kami ng tawa kasi sa gusto kong mangyari sa buhay ko...i'm thinking of a career in the basement of some hospital...well hopefully as a psychologist (or psychiatrist kung may time pa) and not as a patient.

pero sa ngayon pasyente na muna ako. career crisis na itech!