Binyagans, Weddings and My Mudred Mother

Current Listen: Time after time

Last Sunday I went to the christening of my highschool friend's baby. A week before that I also went to the christening of my co-counselor's baby. I am also expecting the christening of another inaanak this year, probably in December. I think I already have more or less 15 inaanak, and I dont even remember some of their names!!! Susme!

Early this year my college kabarkada got married. Next next week, I will be attending my friends wedding. At the end of this year I will be an abay for my college kabarkada.

Sana debut naman ang ma-attendan ko for a change. I feel old with all these binyagans and weddings. I wanna be 18!!!

Haay naketch, whenever my mom would hear such news she would say "Mainggit ka!!!". AS if naman maiinggit ako. But sometimes I do envy those who has their own special someone - maging anak man o asawa. Apektado ang lola kasi I watched the Notebook last night with my mom...see nanay ko ka-date ko! How pathetic ba?! Well not really, I do enjoy her company kasi parang kabarkada ko siya but it would be really nice to have someone other than your mom watch a feel good romantic film...a romantic significant other naman?! :)

Haaay makatagpo sana ako ng Noah ng buhay ko.

Before watching the movie, we talked about resigning and ang walang kamatayang topic na "sino ang mapapangasawa ko?". Parang guessing game na nga ang labas eh. She would even urge me to pray a novena to St. Joseph para daw magkaasawa na ako. Tapos sabi ko sa kanya, "mangyayari nyan pagnagka-boypren ako ulit tapos niyaya akong magpakasal baka ngumawa ngawa ka dyan" I was expecting a yes but to my surprise she reacted na "hindi ah. gusto ko na nga magka-apo" haaay naketch. Pinamimigay na ako! Huhuhuhu! :(

I'm only 25 years old dyos por santo!!!

I find it really irritating when people tell me to get married or magkaboyfriend ka na! (after knowing my age) like nung Sunday sa binyagan nina Jet sabi sa akin ng mamu niya na magka-anak na rin daw ako. Sus parang ang dali lang, if I have someone siguro na siguradong gusto ko makasama ko habang buhay I would gladly get pregnant right away but that doesn't happen in real life.

It's not that easy!!! Especially when you have fear of trusting your heart again. And I think I lost the ablity to recognize when love comes my way. Ika nga ng friend ko, manhid daw ako. Siguro oo nga I've become so numb with the past aches that I trained myself to be densed and insensitive -- to protect myself. Or I do recognize it but would react the other way. I always have this facade na independent, matapang, mandirigma with the purpose of discouraging those who would want to try theirselves on me. I try to be as harsh and snobbish as I can, camouflaging the real feelings I have inside with the toughness Im showing outside. I know you wouldnt understand this, Im not risking anything unless Im sure. agawgnva'mv kdkns ksdflj bpkfkad sdfiwfsd kasfadji ksdkfifoifiomkmsmdfkldjfs nkjfnsoa asdj nasdjnawvm kjhds blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah. end.