hmmmm

from my now defunct hidden blog (br/> (br/> probably one of the good things about having this hidden blog is that i can write whatever i want to write without my friends knowing about it. there are some things that i'd rather keep to myself than share it with anyone and so this is a good outlet for me to just loose myself in writing.

i dont care. i dont need your opinion on anything i just want to write anything...my angst...my stupidity...my emotional instability whatever.

hmmm....i'm even thinking of writing everyday...really making this a real journal.

so, let's get on with it and just start with what i remember.

november 28, 2008 (friday)

went to a christmas party of some company. aizza was there. ang liit nya! tomboy na tomboy talaga. was forced to sing...again. nakakahiya naman kasi kung di magpaparticipate ang kahit isa sa amin...ergo i was the sacrificial lamb. ok lang. i do enjoy singing. so in the spirit of christmas...i sang bituing walang ningning. hahaha

after the party, i apologetically told the host that i will be leaving early because i am scheduled to meet a client very early in the morning.

it's true i'm going to meet a client very early in the morning...but i was also really bored with the crowd that i decided to catch up with my friends at rockwell. hmmm sarap ng yogurt! with blueberries, strawberry and kiwi. haaay.

went home at around 2am. if i didnt have work the next day i would have stayed till like 5.


november 29, 2008 (saturday)

i was with laguna client the whole day. dad flew to ilo-ilo yesterday and so we are free to frolick under the moonlight until wee hours of the morning. no curfew! yes!

i was actually too tired to go out with anyone (was in the office at 6am fuck di ba?) but i ended up going out with our with my officemates later in the evening in malate.

haaay. oks lang pagod pero oks lang.

we ate near the side walk. di ko na nga maalala yung name ng restaurant but it was in front of tia maria's. fuck sobrang daming bading! iba't ibang klase! may mukhang lalake may mukhang babae may ewan basta. malate nowadays is not really a good place if you like boy watching or would be meaning to hook up with a straight guy.

kadiri talaga mga itsura. i get to practice my gaydar though.

november 30 (sunday)

woke up at around 10 i think..i just decided to have hot choco for breakfast...anyway, malapit din naman ang lunch so why bother eating breakfast.

it was a sloooow morning.

my aunt sent me a message earlier saying go to page 8 of the manila bulletin. naman o! philippine star newspaper namin e!

i was expecting some obituaries or a news article about me na nademanda na ako ng adultery or something or my sex video can be bought in quiapo na pala. fuck! what a morning! anyway, i asked my kasamahan to buy me one.

while running through some things inside the garage i noticed my lola's shoes. anak ng dito pala tinambak lahat!

so naturally tsinek ko lahat. i wasnt really sure why am i there in the first place...was probably just looking for something interesting. it's a good find na rin.

so yung ibang mga sapatos maayos pa...pero di ko type lahat. kumuha lang ako ng isa...naturalizer...then i asked my aunts and cousins to get anything they like. kung gusto nila iuwi lahat ok lang...para less kalat.

then i remembered shet may lakad pala kami ni V after lunch. katatapos ko lang maligo when she texted me that she's on her way to my house. wala pa nga kaming plano talaga kung saan mamimili so while on the road we decided to go to market market.

anak ng tinapa! sooooobrang dami ng tao! we just bought some clothes...then transferred to bonifacio high street. at least kaunti ang tao.

tambay sa starbuks...nagkape at nagyosi. hindi na ata ako talaga sanay sa yosi. iba na tlaga ang panlasa nya sa akin. nairita pa ako sa amoy ng tabako ng mama dun sa tabi namin. nakakahilo na.

nothing much to say and see actually...there are those damn dog lovers who were scouting pa yata for a trainer in bonifacio high street. this kinda irks me. para kasing ginagawang tao yung mga aso.

after we bored ourselves to death and lashing to her about my sama ng loob to my mom's sister we head to ortigas to get her dad then went to her dad's house. i was invited for a dinner but i invited someone to meet me instead. save myself from the boredom of family gatherings.

before i left of course each of the sisters were recommending their friends, dates and even ex-bfs to be my potential bf. i know they're just trying to help.

after than i went to see him in buendia. he fetched me with his car and off we went to eat dinner at yellow cab in intramuros. he just listened to my qualms...laughed at some of my stupidity and occasionally agreed on my new found realizations.

i realized we think the same. probably we have the same values. i am his male version only older and less active/energetic in sex. He's definitely NOT my soulmate. my gulay! but i can relate to him.

got home at 4.30am...i think. kung hindi pa ako nagyaya na umuwi baka umabot pa kami ng 6am.

and i still have work the next day.

december 1 (monday)

mom's 40 days. :(

yes i have work and things to do unfortunately.

things should have worked out fine but it didnt. thanks to my brother's great common sense. i know this is kind of cliche but common sense seems not so common anymore.

was angry at frustrated with their irresponsibility. my gulay when are you kids gonna grow up?!!!

i have vague memories of the happenings of the next days...too much for freedom.